Rantings of a rather strange little beast

I'm tired. I have conjunctivitis, a sore throat and the whole occasional dizziness thing still hasn't gone away.

For the third time in a row we have had to launch straight into the Bach without a proper warm up. So I did my very first diva hissy fit and told Kevin if I have to sing without a warm up again, I would't do the concert. I was very unimpressed. I don't lay any blame on the guest conductor, it's Kevin's job to prep us.

I am very concerned about the choir. It may not be able to continue if they don't sell another 500 tickets. Quite simply there is no way the choir can sustain the expected financial loss. I am quite sad about this. The choir has an amazing and incredible history and spending so much time wading through the archives has made me very emotionally attached to the group. I guess I would love to continue creating history for future archive geeks!

I don't know what I can possibly do to encourage people to come. It's incredibly frustrating. I only have one person coming and that leaves me feeling a little flat. I've worked hard and not having people even show a glimmer of interest makes it feel like a waste of time. People suck.

oh well I'll go clean the goo from my conjunctivitised eyes.